Tired and Happy

Its been tiring days for me.
Video shooting, assignments rounding up and due dates just around the corner. damn!!!
Been to Klang for shooting, well, its fun.
At least we get to stick our butt on and learn a lot of stuff.
Its truly difficult to get a video shoot nicely and hit our requirements.
Throughout the shoot, I've been given a new nickname, "NG Queen" lolx... Why I've been given dis name? Theres so many times of NGs' and everyone laugh n laugh n laugh. hahaha!!!
But its funny and fun. But wish to have more time for the video shooting.
Emm... assignments, yea. lately been rushing assignments like hell.
Now am actually rushing one. But too bored so blog up sumthin.

Valentines dayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy..................
Oppsss....too long.
Well, malu to say that this my first time celebrating Valentine's Day.
I did had a great day except for some exceptional cases.
On that day, the holy early morning I;ve to rush to Kl central to meet up my mates for shooting. Thought that around 5pm only will finish up everything. At last, around 12sumthin finish ord.
Then others plan to go sing k, but am going KL central to meet up my dear.
Ingat mau balik rumah mandi then go out de. End up went back home den wait for dear.
I understand his situation.

*dear,am sorry for that day but some cases, hope u understand*

Dear came to pick me up then went to KL area, walk around then to Pavilion for dinner. Later on, concert outside sg.wang. Manage listen to Landy Wen Lan and Gary Cao Ge songs. Well, admit that they're nice. Lovely ><

Went nearby his house then open up pressie.... surprise. hehehe!!!

*Thank you for the pressie hunni, I LOVE IT*

Then yum cha v dear's mom, later both of us went to little genting for some nice views.

A while later, pit stop around KL nite area. woohhh...saw some drunken ppl.

Some hugging, some crying, some walking unsteady, some laughing, some sleeping on de street. gosshhhh.....

Overall, I had a great day and nite with him. Will never forget the first Valentine i had with you and I'm happy to be your Valentine.

** Whats so special about Valentine's Day? haha!!! err...not reali special. Just normal cuz i felt that its a day for couples to gather around and spend times together. emmm.... don have to spend so much. hehe!!! I feel that for now. But one special thing for me is that, I get to spend time with my love one. haha!!!

Settle up

These days have been happy days for me.
I dunno whether i did change not for the time being, BUT for sure i wanna change, TO A BETTER PERSON, out of all that i've encounter.
Been taught and learn, advice from friends, things will go on well if trust is put upon each other.
Yea, its truly REAL!!!!
I'm learning and gaining trust towards each other.
Sometimes i do miss the good old me but sometimes i doesnt.
I've learnt to be more confident towards myself, learnt that as a girl, deres always improvement no matter what.
No matter what, I really have to upgrade myself to a better person.
Let people look upon me, not look down on me.
Let them follow me, not me following them.
Let them respect what I am doing, not wondering what I'm doing.
Time passed and things are changing no matter what.
No matter to good or bad, we still have to face it.
Human beings used to be like this and are like this.
Felt that when things happened, we find holes to hide. But i learn to face them with a wide smile.
We grow, we face problems, we hate problems, But after facing it, we love it.
Because in conclusion, things ain't that bad as what we've been wondering.
We must brave and tough to face it and by then, try to challenge it.
No matter it's gonna be a good or bad till worst conclusion, try to face upon it and don't hide from it. There we learn mistakes and lessons.
From negative, turn it to positive. As everyone says, NEVER TRY, NEVER KNOW.
So... Why not?
Well, for now. First and foremost, things have to be settle up and go on with the plans that I've been longing for.
P/S: Am looking upon you and giving the bestest out of me, learning mistakes and challenging with tough situations.
Looking upon towards the stars and up upon the future......

Past & Resolutions

Well, I've been nagged by my frenz for not updating my blog. hahaha!!!
Am now ere updating k.... woohoo!!! read it.
Dear mei, i do admit tat blogging is fun and sumtimes do get addicted towards it.
Sooooo.... hehehee!!! paham paham la....

2009 is ere. Ord ere.... Buh bye 2008.
New year, New Resolution....
Whats mine???
1. Really need to diet. Damn it.... been gaining lots
2. Save money. Sumtimes overspend. hehe!!!!
3. Be more hardworking. Concentrate in my studies
4. Driving license...This been dragging for long and nagging frm lotsa ppl..syiittt!!
5. Think deepyly towards what i really want and aim for my future.
6. Not to let others worry bout me.
7. Be more truthful towards others
8. Do something i really want with my fren and long for.
9. Be de besties of all.... Do whatever i can help..(ST, try my best to be dere for u...;p)
10. Not be so stupid anymore...arrghh!!! wake up RACHEL KOK. cb
11. Hope i get what i wished and longed for. (I bet some may know what izit. haha!!!)

I bet theres still more coming up.... hahahaa!!!!
Just cant reali tink of any now. Kinda MOODY ere!!! syyyiiitttttt!!!!
Arrghhhh!!!
sometimes how i wish I can get what i want, but i know theres nothin for FREE!!!
Theres alwayz a need to work hard to earn for it.
No matter what we learn in life, its always a special piece of advice and lessons from others. I do APPRECIATE it much... Thx guys!!!

2008!!!!
What did i do during 2008???
Not much!!!
Been naughty for de whole year, but bet theres changes towards me.
More hardworking,

Communication getting better between my family and me. Especially MOM!!! Love u mom!!! Am really happy with the progress, hope to get better.

Know lotsa friends throughout 2008 (no matter who they are and de difference of de age gap)
(especially ST, its reali a pleasure knowing you, really do. Appreciate you sharing lotsa woth me and did learn a lot frm you. "U" MEANT alot to "ME", Besties? U're one to me. All we did in 2008, hope all turns out in 2009 too.) ;p Thank you.

Having my mates around me is one that am proud and happy of. hahahhaahaha!!!

But overall, am happy with everything i owned in life. Really do. Thanks men & women. hahahahaha!!! Just to all of you out dere. Lotsa lurve....!!!!

2009....Its HERE!!!!
21...veri soon. Growing old!!! is that de word should be used??? nahhh!!! jz MATURED!!! hahahaah!!! have to accept it.
Golden key coming to me soon, but, still tie up with my parents. Theres still things i kenot do and forbid with. Just listen to them, as well, they're my love ones.

What do i wana get for my 21st.
Hope for sumthin special and celebrate with special ones. wakakakaka!!!
Am aiming all kinda things right now, real lots. But duno all my wish come true not.
HOPE IT WILL!!!! hahahahaa!!!
Been giving hints out dere. So, pandai pandai la semua.

p/s: I WANT SOMETHING NEW IN MY LIFE & CHERISH THEM WITH LOVE!!!!

Confuse

Sometimes why things have to be so confusing?
Things running in my mind, matters have to be solved, stuffs cant be ruin in just coz of a little bits. We have to solve it... But how?
How things gonna be going on our way? Just the way we wanna be...
No matter in what matters....
No matter in Love,
No matter in Studies,
No matter in Working slots,
No matter in Earning money,
No matter in Gaining knowledge,
No matter in Gaining trust,
No matter in Everything.... I MEANT EVERYTHING

Trying to figure out the best solution for all the matters....
Trying to find the best person to deal with the matters....
Trying to learn the lesson from past experience....
Trying to know and learn bout what true friends are....
Trying to understand my own needs, own future, believing and go on with my own route and be true to myself and fight for my own rights.

What meant to be confusing everyone...
Its not that am the only one who's confuse with what they're having and learning....
But i do believe that everyone went through de same route as everyone went through before...
It just depends on how we deal with it and how we think about the probs which make us so CONFUSE...
Even now am confuse with some decisions that I've made, but am trying my best to find out the best solution and what am going to do next.
From my own opinion....
when you're confuse about something or a decision that you've made, better think of the best solution, or even the best answer for ur question. Dont ever let the question and CONFUSE makes you doing or making the wrong decision, as well it does affect your future. Not only yours, but the one besides you who's gettin into the same trouble and confusion.

You mayb proud if you made de decision which you feels that its best for you and everything gonna be alrite. But think of the friends around you whom get hurt by YOU!!! They have the right to gets everything done in the right place too... Think of all the best for everyone... Make use of your thoughts and decisions wisely...

Always remember that we somehow are the "DECISION MAKER"
Make he right choice before anyone get hurts and never let CONFUSE runs your mind

LOVE

WHAT IS LOVE?

Whats the main purpose of love existing?

Think about it? Further deep down inside, sumtimes everyone doesn't seems to understand the term of LOVE.

It may be the:

LOVE in between friendship

LOVE between family

LOVE between lovers

LOVE between strangers

LOVE in Christ

LOVE in all.....

Been through sumthin dese days...

How should i deal with it?

Am confusing... Truly...

Sumtimes tink back, how my past ended up... Makes me tink of my wrongs.

But... izit all my wrong? Mayb not

Being in all relationship, AM PART OF A FOOL

Being LOVE by everyone n loving others... Am happy with it.

LOVE is just like a magic. It come easily but ended up in a harsh way. For some, not all most probably.

Rating LOVE, it should be 50/50 for me.

Loving someone is a luck for me. You get to know more friends and even understand them. Thats when LOVE arouse.

Its a beautiful thing, LOVE in many meanings and a lovely term.

When dealing with LOVE, we need to commit ourselve in it. Truly, whole heart with no doubts.

LOVE someone with an open heart.

LOVE someone truly from urself

LOVE someone who loves u and u loves him/her

LOVE someone whom you love but doesn;t love u back

Treasure the LOVE you have before you REGRET

Treasure your LOVE ONES before its too late

Go for the LOVE you want for before you REGRET

Go for the LOVE that is made for you

No matter LOVE of families, friends or lover... as mention above

Appreciate it with a Holy heart.

Everything even goes on smoothly if you do so....

Family ==> They LOVE you for who you are, they LOVE you even more than anyone else. Treasure it.

Friends ==> Friends mayb easy to find. But a true friend who LOVE you truly and treat you well with no harm, willing to be there for you anytime no matter anywhere. These are difficult to look for. Treasure them well if you find one. These are God's angel to you.

Lover ==> Think for your future, as well think deeply in your heart, is he/she the one and only. Don't play, as well if you found one who LOVE you more than him/herself, he/she is the one God send for you whom you can spend your entire future life with them and generate new ones.

Jesus Christ ==> The one and only whos always there for us no matter we're in what situation. Believe in HIM as HE'S THE ONE & ONLY

A recommended song - Juwita Suwito - Part of a Fool

List of wishing during holiday

Gosh...am terribly tired ere.
Kinda regret for taking 2 jobs at once. So working everyday. Feels like theres not enough rest at all plus it doesnt seems like a holiday for me.
Holiday should be me going on vacations with family or friends.
Spending times with friends & family.
Go shopping and yum cha.... arrghh....i miss yum cha though

I still cant figure out why i cannot have a proper holiday.
Everytime theres sure sumthin blocking my way to enjoy it.
Now is $$, tatz y so hardworking. Taking up 2jobs. aih!!!
So, in de end no holidays.

If can...What i wana do during my holidays?
1. Sing K till sun rise.... woohoo!!!
2. Makan at jagoya
3. Having unlimited Starbucks(Green Tea Latte/Frap) without charging
4. Shop till broke
5. Watch all movies
6. DIET!!!
7. Go on some vacations
8. Go Singapore SHop shop shop....
9. Spend precious time with my mummy
10. Succeed all the promises with ST
11. More promises with ST
12. K K K K K K
13. theres more...cant tink of any now. Mind is totally blank

Bits to bits...

Been long since i update anythin. Finished my exam and now working....
At where? UMobile company... as well tat i get 2jobs.
One working in de company itself, another as their promoter.
So.... Everyday am working. What to do. Wanna earn extras for my own use.
Arrghhh... Been kinda broke dese days. Spending a lot. But its worth it, i bet... la.... hahaha!!!
Busy working... Gosh... i need a vacation. really need one badly. To release all dose negative sorts of electric in my body. haha!!! Well, a nice vacation with nice people around especially people... ehhherrrmmmm.... Not only that, of course.... Cigarettes + Alcohols... Not much. But a little will do, to release myself mar.

Hmm...sumtimes i think why things have to be so complicated.
Human beings? Being so f**king materialistic.
Human beings? Being so unreachable.
Human beings? Being so so so so much.....
Egoistic? Why should we be like that?
Sumtimes, throw or hide it will be alrite, rite? At least, we should show de true self of ourselves. Doesnt need to be sooooo........ kira kira. Plus, its a good for us not to have this kinda thoughts.
From being not to be so, we gain more friends, and even relationship become closer each day by day.

Money? Does it really matter?
Yea, i know "NO MONEY NO TO EVERYTHING"
This verse, its true. We cant do anythin without MONEY, as well that HEALTH is important. But still, BOTH are IMPORTANT.
Whats the main point of me saying so?
>>> Here comes the answer, MONEY cant buy any relationship or friendship or even family.
If it really does help and needed MONEY to do so, its not a true friendship for every part.
Try to look at some negative sides, you got $$, they come and reach you. You dont have any $$, they'll just put you aside. Does this count as friends? No, it doesnt count as one. Friends who'll be there for you anytime is really a true friend for you.
No hard feelings K everyone, just an opinion.

RELATIONSHIP??? In every sense, its quite a sensitive topic. Loving a person doesnt mean need to buy expensive meals or stuff. But just a HEART spending with each other, the JOY and HAPPINESS both experience together. No matter there are problems or even some other unhappy situation, at least both get to experience it together. Its a last long ever happening memories that both had together.

Comes to this... Does age really matters? I dont think so. As long as both have the same thoughts, unstoppable communication, heart to heart, right interaction and lots more. This makes a good relationship. Appears in life, wishing for one. Think think think....
So.... age is not really a big issue. As long as both are happy with each other to be in their life. Think and look towards the positive sides.
Be optimistic, as well it helps...To IMPROVE in EVERYTHING.