Tired and Happy

Its been tiring days for me.
Video shooting, assignments rounding up and due dates just around the corner. damn!!!
Been to Klang for shooting, well, its fun.
At least we get to stick our butt on and learn a lot of stuff.
Its truly difficult to get a video shoot nicely and hit our requirements.
Throughout the shoot, I've been given a new nickname, "NG Queen" lolx... Why I've been given dis name? Theres so many times of NGs' and everyone laugh n laugh n laugh. hahaha!!!
But its funny and fun. But wish to have more time for the video shooting.
Emm... assignments, yea. lately been rushing assignments like hell.
Now am actually rushing one. But too bored so blog up sumthin.

Valentines dayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy..................
Oppsss....too long.
Well, malu to say that this my first time celebrating Valentine's Day.
I did had a great day except for some exceptional cases.
On that day, the holy early morning I;ve to rush to Kl central to meet up my mates for shooting. Thought that around 5pm only will finish up everything. At last, around 12sumthin finish ord.
Then others plan to go sing k, but am going KL central to meet up my dear.
Ingat mau balik rumah mandi then go out de. End up went back home den wait for dear.
I understand his situation.

*dear,am sorry for that day but some cases, hope u understand*

Dear came to pick me up then went to KL area, walk around then to Pavilion for dinner. Later on, concert outside sg.wang. Manage listen to Landy Wen Lan and Gary Cao Ge songs. Well, admit that they're nice. Lovely ><

Went nearby his house then open up pressie.... surprise. hehehe!!!

*Thank you for the pressie hunni, I LOVE IT*

Then yum cha v dear's mom, later both of us went to little genting for some nice views.

A while later, pit stop around KL nite area. woohhh...saw some drunken ppl.

Some hugging, some crying, some walking unsteady, some laughing, some sleeping on de street. gosshhhh.....

Overall, I had a great day and nite with him. Will never forget the first Valentine i had with you and I'm happy to be your Valentine.

** Whats so special about Valentine's Day? haha!!! err...not reali special. Just normal cuz i felt that its a day for couples to gather around and spend times together. emmm.... don have to spend so much. hehe!!! I feel that for now. But one special thing for me is that, I get to spend time with my love one. haha!!!

Settle up

These days have been happy days for me.
I dunno whether i did change not for the time being, BUT for sure i wanna change, TO A BETTER PERSON, out of all that i've encounter.
Been taught and learn, advice from friends, things will go on well if trust is put upon each other.
Yea, its truly REAL!!!!
I'm learning and gaining trust towards each other.
Sometimes i do miss the good old me but sometimes i doesnt.
I've learnt to be more confident towards myself, learnt that as a girl, deres always improvement no matter what.
No matter what, I really have to upgrade myself to a better person.
Let people look upon me, not look down on me.
Let them follow me, not me following them.
Let them respect what I am doing, not wondering what I'm doing.
Time passed and things are changing no matter what.
No matter to good or bad, we still have to face it.
Human beings used to be like this and are like this.
Felt that when things happened, we find holes to hide. But i learn to face them with a wide smile.
We grow, we face problems, we hate problems, But after facing it, we love it.
Because in conclusion, things ain't that bad as what we've been wondering.
We must brave and tough to face it and by then, try to challenge it.
No matter it's gonna be a good or bad till worst conclusion, try to face upon it and don't hide from it. There we learn mistakes and lessons.
From negative, turn it to positive. As everyone says, NEVER TRY, NEVER KNOW.
So... Why not?
Well, for now. First and foremost, things have to be settle up and go on with the plans that I've been longing for.
P/S: Am looking upon you and giving the bestest out of me, learning mistakes and challenging with tough situations.
Looking upon towards the stars and up upon the future......

Past & Resolutions

Well, I've been nagged by my frenz for not updating my blog. hahaha!!!
Am now ere updating k.... woohoo!!! read it.
Dear mei, i do admit tat blogging is fun and sumtimes do get addicted towards it.
Sooooo.... hehehee!!! paham paham la....

2009 is ere. Ord ere.... Buh bye 2008.
New year, New Resolution....
Whats mine???
1. Really need to diet. Damn it.... been gaining lots
2. Save money. Sumtimes overspend. hehe!!!!
3. Be more hardworking. Concentrate in my studies
4. Driving license...This been dragging for long and nagging frm lotsa ppl..syiittt!!
5. Think deepyly towards what i really want and aim for my future.
6. Not to let others worry bout me.
7. Be more truthful towards others
8. Do something i really want with my fren and long for.
9. Be de besties of all.... Do whatever i can help..(ST, try my best to be dere for u...;p)
10. Not be so stupid anymore...arrghh!!! wake up RACHEL KOK. cb
11. Hope i get what i wished and longed for. (I bet some may know what izit. haha!!!)

I bet theres still more coming up.... hahahaa!!!!
Just cant reali tink of any now. Kinda MOODY ere!!! syyyiiitttttt!!!!
Arrghhhh!!!
sometimes how i wish I can get what i want, but i know theres nothin for FREE!!!
Theres alwayz a need to work hard to earn for it.
No matter what we learn in life, its always a special piece of advice and lessons from others. I do APPRECIATE it much... Thx guys!!!

2008!!!!
What did i do during 2008???
Not much!!!
Been naughty for de whole year, but bet theres changes towards me.
More hardworking,

Communication getting better between my family and me. Especially MOM!!! Love u mom!!! Am really happy with the progress, hope to get better.

Know lotsa friends throughout 2008 (no matter who they are and de difference of de age gap)
(especially ST, its reali a pleasure knowing you, really do. Appreciate you sharing lotsa woth me and did learn a lot frm you. "U" MEANT alot to "ME", Besties? U're one to me. All we did in 2008, hope all turns out in 2009 too.) ;p Thank you.

Having my mates around me is one that am proud and happy of. hahahhaahaha!!!

But overall, am happy with everything i owned in life. Really do. Thanks men & women. hahahahaha!!! Just to all of you out dere. Lotsa lurve....!!!!

2009....Its HERE!!!!
21...veri soon. Growing old!!! is that de word should be used??? nahhh!!! jz MATURED!!! hahahaah!!! have to accept it.
Golden key coming to me soon, but, still tie up with my parents. Theres still things i kenot do and forbid with. Just listen to them, as well, they're my love ones.

What do i wana get for my 21st.
Hope for sumthin special and celebrate with special ones. wakakakaka!!!
Am aiming all kinda things right now, real lots. But duno all my wish come true not.
HOPE IT WILL!!!! hahahahaa!!!
Been giving hints out dere. So, pandai pandai la semua.

p/s: I WANT SOMETHING NEW IN MY LIFE & CHERISH THEM WITH LOVE!!!!

Confuse

Sometimes why things have to be so confusing?
Things running in my mind, matters have to be solved, stuffs cant be ruin in just coz of a little bits. We have to solve it... But how?
How things gonna be going on our way? Just the way we wanna be...
No matter in what matters....
No matter in Love,
No matter in Studies,
No matter in Working slots,
No matter in Earning money,
No matter in Gaining knowledge,
No matter in Gaining trust,
No matter in Everything.... I MEANT EVERYTHING

Trying to figure out the best solution for all the matters....
Trying to find the best person to deal with the matters....
Trying to learn the lesson from past experience....
Trying to know and learn bout what true friends are....
Trying to understand my own needs, own future, believing and go on with my own route and be true to myself and fight for my own rights.

What meant to be confusing everyone...
Its not that am the only one who's confuse with what they're having and learning....
But i do believe that everyone went through de same route as everyone went through before...
It just depends on how we deal with it and how we think about the probs which make us so CONFUSE...
Even now am confuse with some decisions that I've made, but am trying my best to find out the best solution and what am going to do next.
From my own opinion....
when you're confuse about something or a decision that you've made, better think of the best solution, or even the best answer for ur question. Dont ever let the question and CONFUSE makes you doing or making the wrong decision, as well it does affect your future. Not only yours, but the one besides you who's gettin into the same trouble and confusion.

You mayb proud if you made de decision which you feels that its best for you and everything gonna be alrite. But think of the friends around you whom get hurt by YOU!!! They have the right to gets everything done in the right place too... Think of all the best for everyone... Make use of your thoughts and decisions wisely...

Always remember that we somehow are the "DECISION MAKER"
Make he right choice before anyone get hurts and never let CONFUSE runs your mind

LOVE

WHAT IS LOVE?

Whats the main purpose of love existing?

Think about it? Further deep down inside, sumtimes everyone doesn't seems to understand the term of LOVE.

It may be the:

LOVE in between friendship

LOVE between family

LOVE between lovers

LOVE between strangers

LOVE in Christ

LOVE in all.....

Been through sumthin dese days...

How should i deal with it?

Am confusing... Truly...

Sumtimes tink back, how my past ended up... Makes me tink of my wrongs.

But... izit all my wrong? Mayb not

Being in all relationship, AM PART OF A FOOL

Being LOVE by everyone n loving others... Am happy with it.

LOVE is just like a magic. It come easily but ended up in a harsh way. For some, not all most probably.

Rating LOVE, it should be 50/50 for me.

Loving someone is a luck for me. You get to know more friends and even understand them. Thats when LOVE arouse.

Its a beautiful thing, LOVE in many meanings and a lovely term.

When dealing with LOVE, we need to commit ourselve in it. Truly, whole heart with no doubts.

LOVE someone with an open heart.

LOVE someone truly from urself

LOVE someone who loves u and u loves him/her

LOVE someone whom you love but doesn;t love u back

Treasure the LOVE you have before you REGRET

Treasure your LOVE ONES before its too late

Go for the LOVE you want for before you REGRET

Go for the LOVE that is made for you

No matter LOVE of families, friends or lover... as mention above

Appreciate it with a Holy heart.

Everything even goes on smoothly if you do so....

Family ==> They LOVE you for who you are, they LOVE you even more than anyone else. Treasure it.

Friends ==> Friends mayb easy to find. But a true friend who LOVE you truly and treat you well with no harm, willing to be there for you anytime no matter anywhere. These are difficult to look for. Treasure them well if you find one. These are God's angel to you.

Lover ==> Think for your future, as well think deeply in your heart, is he/she the one and only. Don't play, as well if you found one who LOVE you more than him/herself, he/she is the one God send for you whom you can spend your entire future life with them and generate new ones.

Jesus Christ ==> The one and only whos always there for us no matter we're in what situation. Believe in HIM as HE'S THE ONE & ONLY

A recommended song - Juwita Suwito - Part of a Fool

List of wishing during holiday

Gosh...am terribly tired ere.
Kinda regret for taking 2 jobs at once. So working everyday. Feels like theres not enough rest at all plus it doesnt seems like a holiday for me.
Holiday should be me going on vacations with family or friends.
Spending times with friends & family.
Go shopping and yum cha.... arrghh....i miss yum cha though

I still cant figure out why i cannot have a proper holiday.
Everytime theres sure sumthin blocking my way to enjoy it.
Now is $$, tatz y so hardworking. Taking up 2jobs. aih!!!
So, in de end no holidays.

If can...What i wana do during my holidays?
1. Sing K till sun rise.... woohoo!!!
2. Makan at jagoya
3. Having unlimited Starbucks(Green Tea Latte/Frap) without charging
4. Shop till broke
5. Watch all movies
6. DIET!!!
7. Go on some vacations
8. Go Singapore SHop shop shop....
9. Spend precious time with my mummy
10. Succeed all the promises with ST
11. More promises with ST
12. K K K K K K
13. theres more...cant tink of any now. Mind is totally blank

Bits to bits...

Been long since i update anythin. Finished my exam and now working....
At where? UMobile company... as well tat i get 2jobs.
One working in de company itself, another as their promoter.
So.... Everyday am working. What to do. Wanna earn extras for my own use.
Arrghhh... Been kinda broke dese days. Spending a lot. But its worth it, i bet... la.... hahaha!!!
Busy working... Gosh... i need a vacation. really need one badly. To release all dose negative sorts of electric in my body. haha!!! Well, a nice vacation with nice people around especially people... ehhherrrmmmm.... Not only that, of course.... Cigarettes + Alcohols... Not much. But a little will do, to release myself mar.

Hmm...sumtimes i think why things have to be so complicated.
Human beings? Being so f**king materialistic.
Human beings? Being so unreachable.
Human beings? Being so so so so much.....
Egoistic? Why should we be like that?
Sumtimes, throw or hide it will be alrite, rite? At least, we should show de true self of ourselves. Doesnt need to be sooooo........ kira kira. Plus, its a good for us not to have this kinda thoughts.
From being not to be so, we gain more friends, and even relationship become closer each day by day.

Money? Does it really matter?
Yea, i know "NO MONEY NO TO EVERYTHING"
This verse, its true. We cant do anythin without MONEY, as well that HEALTH is important. But still, BOTH are IMPORTANT.
Whats the main point of me saying so?
>>> Here comes the answer, MONEY cant buy any relationship or friendship or even family.
If it really does help and needed MONEY to do so, its not a true friendship for every part.
Try to look at some negative sides, you got $$, they come and reach you. You dont have any $$, they'll just put you aside. Does this count as friends? No, it doesnt count as one. Friends who'll be there for you anytime is really a true friend for you.
No hard feelings K everyone, just an opinion.

RELATIONSHIP??? In every sense, its quite a sensitive topic. Loving a person doesnt mean need to buy expensive meals or stuff. But just a HEART spending with each other, the JOY and HAPPINESS both experience together. No matter there are problems or even some other unhappy situation, at least both get to experience it together. Its a last long ever happening memories that both had together.

Comes to this... Does age really matters? I dont think so. As long as both have the same thoughts, unstoppable communication, heart to heart, right interaction and lots more. This makes a good relationship. Appears in life, wishing for one. Think think think....
So.... age is not really a big issue. As long as both are happy with each other to be in their life. Think and look towards the positive sides.
Be optimistic, as well it helps...To IMPROVE in EVERYTHING.

Come around, Goes around

Doesnt really know whats happening towards me...

Am i changing?? If so... to good or bad??? Confusing me huh!!!

Dont really know what am i thinking... Lotsa stuff happened as well.

Been stuffing myself with those bunch of work loads. Getting retard soon. Lolx.... Am hoping for more from myself. Not just a single piece of s**t happens to interfere my life. But lots happening these days. Dunno what am i really thinking about. Not enough of sleep and panda eyes ord growing... It getting darker... duh!!! I do wanna get myself done with my things and get ready for my finals.

Finals is just around the corner. Am freaking scared now. Hope everything will be fine for me. What made me think of finals? Its started off when am having lunch with Pui Mun, Rachel Ng and Pei Li this afternoon. I was eating there then suddenly we talk about finals, then Pui Mun suddenly said, its one week plus from now. My expression was like..... S**t... OMG!!! I haven even started my revision, as well that I dunno what I really learn in Journalism and Media class, there were no nt much notes and all the time we were chatting with the lecturer and watching movie. haha!!! I really in deep s**t now.... woohoo~~ HELP!!!

Now, free for me to talk about my happy stuffs here. hehe!!! Well, theres been some misunderstandings and things happened as made us feel moody and not happy with it. But... hope there a smile coming back soon. Which make our friendship stays longer.

A Magazine had been created on 20th Oct. Baby "Spin The World" mag. ehehehe!!! Well, I get to take some photo with it. Heres some....

(Baby "Spin The World" mag)

(Me and Baby Mag!! hehe~~)

Well, thats a happy news for a new born baby mag. haha!!! But sad for misunderstandings and beh song.... Forget about that.... Last friday had a great time with my cousie Yue Ran. hehe!!! Get to go out with her. Walk all the way to KTM station... shhhh....Dont tell that to my mom, she thought am following my friends car. haha!!! Went to meet her up then went to Mid Valley to look for her mom's shoe, but failed. Later get to Sg. wang by KTM and Monorial...tired day for us. But in de mean time, we went to get our hand done with "Heena"... haha!!! After all, we had an enjoyable day but tiring. She treat me go sing k, and what a coincidence is that i bump on my ex-coll mates. hehe!!! Really miss them.

(Thats us spending de whole day together)

1st pic: try to differentiate the skin textute, OMG!!! my cousie is so white and mine so dark man. Gosh!!

2nd pic: us in de k box enjoying ourselves...singing our lungs out. haha!!!

3rd pic: me v my heena on. hehhe!!! waiting it to dry out under de hot sun.

4th pic: me singing dere... haha!!! in de mean time camwhoring. *blush*

5th pic: same thing dere... hehe!!! cousie waiting under de hot sun v me...hehe!!!

Well, time passed veri fast and its time to say buh bye... hehe!!! time to go ahead v my studies...Hope everything does on well with everyone. =)

One for all

time passed and how i wish things can go on an easier way for me....
lotsa things happened.
one of my assignment kena reject twice, have to redo it again and again...haih!!! but luckily now i had my marks ord. hehe!!!

I stil having tough time with my mom...arghhh... quarreling around. OMG!!! save me. how i wish our relation could be better den now and be like how my bro chat v her with no quarrels but full of laughters.

Relationship??? nah, am not in one right now. hehe!!! but chatting with him is quite happy and we do enjoy chatting with each other. laughing around, showing each other stupid face, joking around. hahaahha!!! damn, i reali do enjoy man. hehe!!! but he's far from me. hmmm.... but he's comin down kl soon. arrghhh.... cant wait for it. hehe!!! well, sumtimes i do wish for more. hehe!!! but am not sure of everything. izit appropriate to do so? what he's telling is de truth izit? does he feel de same as how i does? hmm.... i doubt a lot. I HOPE THINGS WHICH ARE HAPPENING IS REAL AND CAN BCOME REALITY, BUT NOT JZ A DREAM OR GLANCE.

i noe that things change a lot in me and i wish more to be change, but to a better person, but to worst. do better in my exam and STOP doing last minute work. arrghhh... dese days i reali don feel like doin my assignment till my due dates are near. SHIT!!!

I still miss my friends. really wish to meet dem everyday. hehe!!! days that we spent together is just not enough at all. miss miss miss.

HOPES THINGS CAN CHANGE BETTER TO WHAT I WANT AND WISH FOR!!!!

Friends for all

Initially am freaking tired rite now.... But still am bored and doesnt feel lik sleeping. I dunno why people will get freak out after reading my msn display name. Does that really influence or pays an impact on you??? Am not too sure, but overall, am to myself and I really dont feel lik caring anymore. As well that i'll just pretend what you said before are just bullshits and it's being sway away... shoohhhh soohhhh......

These days am just busy with my assignments. In my mind all are DUE DATES.... arrghh... WTF!!! But stil, i really want to finish it up as am scared of the due dates. But no form la... no mood to do...den extend. but now better. ahhahaha!!! The worst thing that happen is that I got an assignment which has been rejected for the 3rd time. I've to redo redo redo... damn...am bored of it. But stil have to redo it and guai guai hand it up.

During the Raya holiday for one week... hmmpp... ada keluar lo. Went fo gathering with TARC coll mates then secondary mates. There should... eh eh...there is a primary gathering too...but didn attend. was not free tat day. Well, its been blessing days for me as i get to meet all my mates just in a week time. OMG!! i miss them so freaking much. At last. Enjoy very much and heres some pics to show... i looks very stupid. haha!!!

(this the pic showing all of us, although i duno some of dem, but at least can c de ones i noe. hehe!!! happy birthday my dear DORIS)

(Inilah dipanggil "empat bunga", but actualli its LIMA, left Soo out coz dia MIA. haha!!!)

(this pic shows me and lembuku... haha!!! its Julius Moo.... haha!!! a friend of 3 years)

(I look freaking retarted here. hhaha!!! looks so stupid. coz we;ve nth better to do and its been long since we had so much fun together)

ok...now secondary mates punya sudah habis... haha!!! Dorisku... Happy birthday ya. May all ur wishes come true and its reali a bless for me to have ya;ll around. mwwaahhss....
Now... time for TARC mates... not much pic...but stil had fun. hehe!!!]

(thats de girls of de nite but left out 2 more whos sitting opposite of us. haha!! from left: nicole, charleen, me(rachel), vicky and wai ting)

(this de another 2 girls i mentioned. haha!!! from left: apple and hendy)

(am with one of the birthday boy... Loong gor... haha!!! Hes a funny guy and holding de pressie from us.)

(tatz me and Johnson... another birthday boy. haha!!! he looks gd in tight shirts and got muscles ord. haha!!!!)

(last pic of all, as what girls lik to do in toilet, camwhoring... haha!! leen vicky and me.)

tatz all for today's blog and hope ya'll enjoy looking at all dese pics. haha!! btw, i miss everyone again and miss de days we had. plus plus... CG, i'll be back.. i hope i get de gd news too. =)

Satisfy? Yes? No?

Things are changing all in a while and i think i should appreciate for those who supported me and those who reali nodded their head with me and suggested me with new things and remind me of old ones....

Well, first... Church???? yea, i reali wanna go back and join my cell group as well to motivate myself. Somtimes its realli hard to go as my parents doesnt realli like me going to church ord. I definately dunno wats wrong. At first they doesnt have a bit of worries of me going to church, and they like the changes i have towards myself. But suddenly when finals come during 3rd sem, i stop going to church as mom says i should pay attention towards my finals. After finals, i wanna go back but mom and dad doesnt like it ord. I dunno what had happened. Even they call me go to temple more. arrghhh.... am realli frustrated. I wish to go on to church, but scared hurting their feelings as their my parents. hmmm....

Raya + Study week holiday is here and its ord de 4th day... Time passed so fast and i wish for longer holidays. Holidays seems not enough for me at all. But at least get to meet up with my old school and college mates. ohhhh... i miss them so freaking much. Had enjoyable time with them although time used to spend with them arent enough at all. But am satisfied for meeting them up. Hoping more gathering coming up although its aint going for expensive dinner or shopping. Go for sports also not bad. haha!!! Wish to have this with my cell group too... =(

Arrghhh..... I NEED MORE SPORTS @ EXERCISE!!!! weight increase again. SHIT!!! haha!!! but i admit tat i reali ate alot during this holiday. oh my....
Other than this problem... my lazy worms are coming back again... they;re just around me. PLEASE.... GO AWAY. I need to be hardworking. Theres tons of assignments waiting for me and due date is near. aih..... Lai Lai Lai... come bek. hehe!!!

Losing friends is one main prolem am facing and hate soooo.... much. From a relationship we're changing to besties, then change again to normal friends, then now duno wat... seems like u're trying to get away from me. I still rmb wat u told me. We;re still best friends no matter wad. and i believe that one day you and i will understand whats happening around. Dear E, be tough no matter what and i dont ever wish to lose a friend like you. As you mention before. we're stil best friends. and it will just remain as friends, i do promise this. Coz i've learnt one thing after u're gone, we shouldnt eat "Back head grass". Friendship ever. No hard feelings and worries. =)

My dearie Secondary mates, its a funny thing i heard from ZH. haha!!! She said i got BF. OMG>!!! No no no... i dont have ler... Just am waiting for my prince charm. haha!!! When i have for sure i'll inform ya'll. no worries for this K. No matter wad, i'll have lotsa stories waiting to share with ya'll. waiting waiting and stilll.... waiting. Waiting for Saturday to arrive so that i can share it out. Am realli happy for todays outing, its been reali fun. Shouting and laughing around... woohhh.... I miss lots. muahhshs....

A Miss of Things

Suddenly felt like blogging... Just went through some of others blogs. Its been long since i go through their blog and now i found new story, adventures, places to hang around, stuffs and more...

Now i reali feels that i'm so lost. reali very very lost. Its been long since i blog, its been long since i keep in touch with some of them, its been long since i didn go to CHURCH!!!! this de main point. My eyes keeps on flashing as i read through their blog and found there were reali a lot of stuff happening around. Feels like am running out from here and am so outdated. I miss the good old days that i use to have. Hanging around with my coll mates, secondary mates, church friends.... and more. Missing the time and golden days. Stil remember the time i use to attend church and cell group, after de day, i will straight upload my blog with whats happening around. OMG!!! miss!!!

Well, for one thing am sure its realli changing. FRIENDSHIP. As well that i felt everything is changing around me and people whom i'm close with is getting further, relationship between us is changing. I reali hope and wish it won't be tasteless. Am now in 4th sem, and taking different subject, and de time clashes with de break time with others, am all alone everytime. i reali miss de good old time that we hang around at places although its alwiz de same place, but who cares. but now??? am owiz in de reading room all alone. I felt the changes within myself too... Am changing to a person whos more quiet and seldom laugh, i miss de good old me, where did she go? I realli duno why is this happening towards me. Maybe coz i seldom talk and laugh, this makes me havin less communication with others. arrgghhhh........ i hate this.

I miss my old personality but likes how i handle my problems and thoughts....
I miss the good old days we used to hang out and hate that am all alone....
I miss the times that i used to have and hate the packed time that i'm having....
I miss all my mates and wish to hang out with them everyday....
I miss all my mates but i'm reali sorry for not contacting ya'll all the time....
I miss the initiative that i had last sem and wish that the liveliness will come bek again dis sem....

and here i wish everyone will forgive me if i did anythin wrong and wish i can gain back more friends as how i do last time, wish i can be the happy go lucky girl back....
I MISS EVERYTHING....

Happy birthday

Friday celebrated Kelvin's birthday. muahahaha!!!
He's supposed to come and pick me up. However ended up calling me few times but didn pick up. My bro was yelling at me calling me to pick up my call coz i left it in de living room and i was in my room preparing to meet the "King of the Night"... woohoo!!! seems big huh!!! ahhaha!!

Well, i cant give him any surprise coz i dont have any transport that can bring me to de cafe. Instead of surprise, i gave him "instant surprise"... Told him that i've bought cake all over from subang by KTM. He said this de 1st time ate a cake which sit a train all the way to CHeras. Wiiii.... proud of myself. This de 1st time celebrated for him and its his 21st.

Not much surprise but had some conversation which i learn a lot from him. Then talk about our past and days we use to spend together. haha!!! such a blast day for me. again again... i enjoy so much and really looking forward for de next outing.

(Happy birthday hun... Muahhsss...)

( This me and the "King of the Night)

Felt bad

Its been quite sometime i didn't post any blog ord...
coz of my busyness schedule??? haha!!! just coz of my assignments and now they're stil more. Just felt that de assignments cant be finished.

Alright... its been 2 weeks i didn't go for cellgroup. Felt bad.
1st time is coz of gatherining with my Tarc mates. 2nd time is coz of having dinner with relatives. aih aih!!! Plus today not going to church. Felt very very bad. arghhhggg.....!!!And now am here blogging coz cant sleep back after woke up.
Owwhh...!!! i sprain my ankle. Stupid me. Pain Pain... Now i should be singing songs to let de pain go away. haha!!!

Janice-My Eyes Don't Lie

If rose is green and grass is red,

will you remember what I say?

Baby, don't forget before you regret

stuck in my mind.

A needle through my head,

the light you shine into the night

you take away my fright

and for everytime I see you I try

what i try to say is stay with me tonight

for what i really feel inside

my eyes won't let me hide

everytime i see you, they start to cry

cause this time, my love, it could mean goodbye

don't say goodnight

Eyes will never hide feelings from "U". Except they aren't true to "U". Frights you took away, regrets "U"made, goodnight "U" said, goodbye "U" meant are words that least felt.

p/s -> enjoy the song everyone. appreciate whos beside "U"

Landy 温岚-傻瓜 Sha Gua (Fool)

其实他做的坏事我们都懂

qi shi ta zuo de huai shi wo men dou dong

We all know what bad things he has done

没有什么不同

mei you shen me bu tong

Not much difference

眼光闪烁 暧昧流动

yan guang shan shuo ai mei liu dong

Roaming eyes and ambiguous relationships

闭上眼当作听说

bi shang yan dang zuo ting shuo

I close my eyes and pretend they're just hearsay

其实别人的招数我们都懂

qi shi bie ren de zhao shu wo men dou dong

We know too well the tricks of others

没有什么不同

mei you shen me bu tong

Not much difference

故作软弱 撒娇害羞

gu zuo ruan ruo sa jiao hai xiu

Pretend to be weak and shy

只是有一点别扭

zhi shi you yi dian bie niu

It's only a little unnatural

傻瓜也许单纯地懂

sha gua ye xu dan chun de dong

Fools are perhaps innocent

爱得没那么做作

ai de mei na me zuo zuo

Their love is not so pretentious

爱上了我不保留

ai shang le wo bu bao liu

When I have fallen in love, I won't hold back

傻瓜 我们都一样

sha gua wo men dou yi yang

Fools we are, all the same

被爱情伤了又伤

bei ai qing shang le you shang

Hurt by love time after time

相信这个他不一样

xiang xin zhe ge ta bu yi yang

Believing that this one will be different

却又再一次受伤

que you zai yi ci shou shang

And yet we get hurt once again

傻瓜 我们都一样

sha gua wo men dou yi yang

Fools we are, all the same

受了伤却不投降

shou le shang que bu tou xiang

Hurt by love and yet never gave up

相信付出会有代价

xiang xin fu chu hui you dai jia

Believing there will be a reward for our giving

代价只是一句傻瓜

dai jia zhi shi yi ju sha gua

And all it is, to be called a Fool

DIET

Ok.... Let me start up with a sentence... I'm getting thinner and thinner... *opps...* wrong ord. Its fatter and fatter. haha!!! Morning and afternoon can tahan dont wan eat, but when night arouse, i tend to get addicted to what mom cooks and food at home. So... this makes me getting fatter and fatter. Btw, one more thing making me so too... Its the goreng wantan sold at my college cafeteria. OMG!!! You can see them keep on refilling the wantan. Everytime i go to de cafeteria, i cant resist it, topping of the chilli... yummy *slurppp* ehehe!!!

Now... Lets stop this. I need to DIET. Thats a must ord... haha!!!
Diet Diet Diet... aaaaaa.... I can do it. I know... hehe!!!
I diet, i can save up my money too. For future use... For the ASIA CONFERENCE... yeahhhh!!!

Now... I'm happy with my assignment due dates as both my assignments for the animation flash and journal has been postponed to next week. As this is a good news for me, coz tomoro i need to pass up ord if my lecturer didnt postponed it.

Studies??? Still can cope with it. As today had my psychology Pop Quiz, didnt reali do well on it as all of us studied last minute and i lost 9 marks out of 20. Hope others that i did is correct. hehe!!! Well, everything for me is ok, cant say 100% good, but at least still good for me.

Everything getting better

Relationships???
At first i woke up in the early morning wanting to attend church. But its raining heavily, so i was thinking how can i attend church. Looking out of the window and the rain is pouring cats and dogs. So... I said to myself, why don't o take my bath 1st then only see how everything goes as i don't wana wake my mom up. Luckily its not very heavy, then i walk to esso station to wait for the van to church. And you know what, i knew some new friends. As i know Robin before but didn't talk much, but today ended up chat with him during my way back home. And i knew one more friend name Josephine, shes from Indonasia and i had a great talk with her. Get her number and said will call her up for some drinks. haha!!!
Today attend Church for Paster Kevin's Relationship series... Not bad.
This de 3rd chap for RELATIONSHIP SERIES... Love it!!! I miss the 2nd chap, waiting for church to upload it so that i can listen to it. hehe!!! Attending church is one of my favorite now... haha!!! Wanting to learn more about GOD.

Today Yen brought her sister along to church and Li Pei too... Am proud of them for attending church and happy for them too for making the first step and courage to learn more about GOD. Proud of Yvonne too as shes the one who brought Yen to church. hehe!!! Proud of you babe. Learn something new too... As Emerge is around the corner, while waiting for van, Yvonne explain to me every details whats Emerge about and why izit seperated into 4 groups. As i felt its soooooo cool. haha!!! Looking forward for EMERGE!!!!

Another great news... Actually theres 2...
First, my relationship with my family is getting better and better... This what i'm happy about. As last time i use to have different thoughts from them and hav lots of arguments and misunderstoods. But now i do uderstand why they do so and whats their purpose... Happy for myself. hehe!!! *winks*

Second, today i asked Yvonne about the Singapore trip. Not really a Singapore trip, its an Asia Conference held at Singapore. Yvonne explain to me and i feel the urge of going. I told my about it while i'm having dinner with my family. I told mom everything i know... mom didn't reject or say anythin that offend me. She asked me some questions and smile... I think thats a YES for her??? haha!!! Hope so... but i hope everything will go on well when its near. And now i must save up some money for the trip so that i can use my own pocket money to go there. hehe!!!

Btw, i havent take my undang test yet. arghhh... Hoping that i can have it this thursday and i can spend my time studying on my undang. Plus... ASSIGNMENTS... its building up more and more each day and now i have around 5 assignments to due with. Theres more coming... But i hope i can finish on time and whatever lecturer taught me i can remember it and not panic while dealing with MACROMEDIA FLASH... As now i'm having problems to make those animation. Ohhh.... Save me...

Well, i just hope everything will go on well for me... No walls blocking my way and relationship with family will go better day by day. Wanting them to stay healthy and live happy.

Learn, Pack & Misses

eiikkk.... i'm back.haha!!!! Didnt blog for a few days ord. haha!!!

First and foremost... Thursday i had my Research Communication exam. Enter class late coz overslept. haha!!! but luckily lecturer haven start the exam yet. Well, i would say what i studied reallu pay off. Enter class, then lecturer pass on papers and exam sheet to us. As i took the paper, i was so happy... yippii... wrote down everything i remember. At first i was stuck, but i go on with what i remember, do whatever i know. Writing non-stop there till times up also haven finish. This means that i doesnt have enough time to finish everything up. Last time i use to think mid term not important at all and doesnt put much effort on it. Now??? not anymore. everything is important to me and dare not miss any class. And i can learn from mistakes. haha!!! so that during finals i wont do the same mistakes.

Finish with exam...
The second would like to talk about is.... KTM...
Wednesday i took KTM to college and back too. The train was so so so so.... PACK...
As i just read from newspaper ... food price rising soon... Everything also so expensive. Now i think i've to take KTM to college and back everyday ord. Coz mom said petrol too expensive ord. Will be very tiring on the coming days. haih!!! On wednesday night... mom said we cannot waste money ord. When buy something must think carefully whether we need it not, fan, lights or whatever that we not using must switch off. Saturday and Sunday eat at home... Dad says he's gonna cook. wow!!! seems like increasing the petrol price is very effective for my parents as what also need to jimat. aihhh!!!!
Since kena jimat... So... DIET sajalah... ahahaha!!! but i'm craving for more food nowadays. Yesterday just ate a packet of Mr.Potato while watching THE NOTEBOOK. hehe!!! nice movie. Loving it. Back back... DIET ar..... wahca..... MUST

By the way... i miss SHOPPING!!!!
Long time didn go shopping ord. But i myself also busy with my assignments. Theres 5 assignments waiting for me to finish them up. Oh my... pray pray pray that i can finish everything on time... hehe!!!

Exhausted then Energetic

I should be studying right now as i'm havin one of my mid-term paper tomoro. arrghhh... Its Research communication. fuh!!! neway, i know i can do it well... have faith in myself.

Petrol price is increasing tomoro. When i woke up from my nap just now, as i was so exhausted, mom was cooking, suddenly she call me go open the door to go out to fill in the petrol. Today pasar malam, very jam ord. Tambah all the drivers were queuing up, lagi jam ord. Should have take along my phone to take a picture and let all of ya'll see. Its like having sales.... haha!!! Then when its our turn to fill in, the papers were finished for the purpose of printing the receipts. See... how effective it is when government wants to increase the petrol price. As i know.... august the petrol price will be increase again. arrghhh... Mom said it will be very costly if she send me to and back from college. So... mom decided that i should take ktm to coll and back. Not only the government is effective, even my mom is fast in thoughts. I bet it'll be tiring for me, but what to do, need to study. haih!!! Thats the only choice except if i get my license.

Yesterday went to church, well Paster Robb Thompson came to gave a talk. Its good... Although he looks serious, i mean his facial expression, but into my surprise, he jokes a lot too.
Yesterday when mom pick me up from esso station, as i go and back home from church by church van, so mom came to fetch me. Mom said that dad talks bout me. He's curious why i suddenly go to church so often. Then told mom that it must be want to "gup zai" tatz why i go so often. haha!!! Then i told mom... apa la...where got. Go to church coz i felt i want to go and want to learn more. As now i go to church quite often, i felt that going to church doesnt waste my time anymore. I wish that i can have my own transport to travel to church and cell group whenever i want to. No need ma fan follow the van and my fren to fetch me around. fuhh!!! But i'll just pray more so that it will succeed one day. hehe!!!

Going to church more often and attend the services makes me feel refresh although i just adapt to this kind of lifestyle. Last time i also use to attend church near my house, but everytime, i just feel lazy to go. But now... not anymore. i feel very energetic and listening to paster's sermons... i feel that i've learn a lot and wanting to learn more and more. Hope that everything will go on well.

I should keep on with my revision now... Pray that i'll remember everything when i face the paper tomoro. haha!!! God Bless.