Friday, May 30, 2008


Let me start my story...hehe!!!
What happen today was i woke up late. Actuali i woke up on time, but slept back after i switch on de heater. Sleep till around 8.45am only wake up as my class is at 9am. I quickly go to take a quick shower then call my bro wake up. He said, its late, no need go to class ord. what the... Hey, ah gor a... Dont teach me bad stuff le... hehe!!! Reach college ord 9.40am like that. Luckily the lecturer didnt scold me. haha!!! This semester was my first time late to class. OMG!!! Imagine how good i was, last semester always late for classes. haha!!!

Now... heres a good news. Cant say 100% a good news, but at least its a good news for me. Today, when i came back home from college, mom told me that someone called dad to accept christ. The story is like tat... One day, my uncle had lunch with his teacher, then they had a chat and uncle told his teacher about my dad's previous condition when he was battling with the sickness as my dad was warded into ICU after one week in de normal wards. At last now dad is alright but still his kidney is not that good. Still doesnt really function very well as dad still need to go for body check up once 3 months. Now dad have to eat less as he cant eat too much coz scared calories high, and others. Well, at last dad is still here with us and luckily hes recovering but just need time and his own courage and ways of lifestyle. .
Ok!!! Back to de topic. Mom called my uncle and told him about it and everyone was shock to hear tat. Even me at 1st, but am very happy and hope dad will do so as he has bad perception towards "Christians". I duno de main reason of it. Just know bout de back story of it. But i just hope God will touch my dad's heart and let him know and step ahead to church and accept christ. Hope evrything will go on well... Miracles will come true. I believe it...

The 2nd news is also happened today...
Reach home from college then sleep on de sofa and had a chat with mom. I told her about Yvonne's grandpa situation and how her grandpa accepted christ. And now that her grandpa is in good condition and everything is going on well with her grandpa and started to learn how to walk ord as i heard it from Yvonne during cell group meeting today.
I told mom about it then mom answered me "Yea, miracles will happen le ma, correct or not"? Well, as this is my 1st time hearing mom saying like that, really shocked. Then mom say, ya la ya la, i understand what you saying. Mom also called me to go to church more often and she'll try to confront dad and say more good things about me going to church. hehe!!! Good news for me. God did answer my prayer. Thank you. But still la...although i wish to attend church more often, i still have to undertstand my dad's feelings and be a good girl...Just have to pray more. hehe!!!

hmm... tatz all from me. Sayonara.

Thursday, May 29, 2008

Missing YOU

Its been more than half a year. Everything changed, you changed a lot. Looking back at all de photos tat we took, it makes me misses you more. At first its a hard time for me to forget you and leave you as deres no words from you after de last day i saw you and de last phone call from you. All i heard de news of yours is through your friends and your parents. The last phone call is when before you go back to your hometown, telling me tat you'll contact me when you come back to KL. In the end, although you came to KL deres still no calls or sms from you. It makes me felt so bad and acting nothin is happening, pretending to be happy in a way tat i'm not happy at all. A hard time tat i've gone through. Day by day, wishing you and waiting for your calls, but still no phone calls came through till now. At last, i'll just have to take it, have to accept everything is true and theres no turning back anymore. A deep heart is being hurt... and told myself to stand strong no matter wat.

After a few months, still no sign of you. But news from your parents who always make de courage to call me and this makes me feel so touch. Whenever your dad called me, he'll make sure i'm alright and tell me to take care as my route is still long and they're still a bright space waiting for me to fill it with colors. Always make sure that i know your updated news and wats happening aound you.

As always hearing tat you'll be going to Dubai to work, but wanting to know when you going, i try my best to check when you going.

Finally, after checking when you going but still i duno when. The day you went to Dubai, your dad called me and told me you were off to Dubai ord and just reach Jakarta waiting for de next flight to transfer to Dubai. After one or two weeks, your dad called me again. Asking me how am i, and told me bout your news. Told me tat you lost ur lugage, but luckly met a few person dere whos gd and friendly tat bring you to buy some stuff tat you need while waiting for your lugage to be found. This makes me worry at first. Now you're dere. Hope you're happy with your work dere and God bless you my dear.

What makes me suddenly think bout you and wants to write bout you???

It coz of i went through de pics we took together. And de pics tat you posted in friendster, saw some of de pics were de one i took for you b4 and i also saw de 2nd pic tat you send to me through mms. Still remember, trying my best to to slot out some time for you. de hard times tat i had and times tat you comfort me and lectured me. Moments tat we use to spend time at some places tat we went for so many time. Times we took bus, lrt, putra, ktm, taxi together. Although we have no cars, but we still do spend great times together. Times tat we argue and we talk to each other back. Time you and me spend with each other family and friends. Still remembering de 1st time you met my mom and bro, you were so shy tat you dare not hold my hand in front of my mom till i said its ok to do so. remembered de 1st time you came to my house, having dinner at my home cook by my mom. going pasar malam helping my mom carry all de fruits along walk back to my home. Time you were playing with my babies... my baby dogs. Time we use to hold hand and you gave me hugs and kisses and it warm up my heart whenever you does it. The 1st time you cooked for me. stil rmb, just cooking a packet of indomee, but you put so many ingredients in it. Drinks tat you made for me were so SWEET... Love it.

But now all dose were memories for me... I will keep it in my heart forever. Hope everything with you wil be alright and goes well. My dear J, words tat you gave me and supports from you will always be de courage for me to do something tat i dare not to and time when i'm down. Thanks for de sweet memories you gave me. Although no couples for us to be, but hope deres still FRIENDS for us to be. Best wishes to you my dear J. Heart to heart, its very warm. LOVE

Sunday, May 25, 2008


What makes me wana blog today??? and this early.
This morning i woke up kinda late and was rushing to Esso station since i nid to meet up Leslie and other church members church. When i reach dere, theres juz Leslie and his friend, others was late and there arent many who came. Just a few of us.

Today its bout "Relationship".
Pastor Kevin is de one whos talking. And all along de talk, Pastor was joking around. It was so fun that everyone were laughing dere. Well, again i dont have any pictures or videos to show. I hope i can show out some pictures of church. Did i mention Pastor Kevin just came back from overseas??? Ok, nope. i didnt. Pastor just came back from Korea and Indonasia. He went dere to preach and attended other church. He showed us some pictures and now only i know tat de largest church is in Korea. It fits around 775,000 people per week, if i'm not mistaken. The church was a held in a stadium and its really fill with people around. With their own themes, colors of clothes tat were set. It was really awesome.

Back to today's talk. It was fun as Pastor was talking bout "Husband and Wives" as how they should commit themselves towards each other. This de 1st time i know bout it and it enhance my knowledge.

One more thing, a good news.
Yvonne told me tat yesterday she brought along our classmates to church. She brought along Yen, Joanne and others. They did enjoy although they doesnt understand some of the stuff tat were going around. Other than yesterday, she also brought along one more friend to church today. Its Katie's friend. Good job Yvonne. I hope one day i can bring along some of my friends too, and dey'll enjoy de sermons.

During alter call today, its seperated into 3 parts. and i'm part of it. Pastor call out for those who raise their hands. As i raise mine. I duno why, whenever i think of my parents, tears slowly falls as i feel like raising up my hand and get prayed by others. I duno why i will cry, but mayb coz of tinkin of my parents and de hard times tat i'm going through, but i know... one day i will stop crying and move on with a bright smile. Sumtimes i felt tat i'm having a hard time dealing with my own life. As i know tat my dad doesnt reali like me to attend church. But i do hope, one day dey'll accept me as their child who accepted Christ, not only this, naturally i hope dey'll follow me to attend church and have a great time there. Hope tat dey can have a close relationship with GOD and experience de place tat i'm attending, which is "The House of God". But i know tat this will take time, i believe in miracles and it will happen.

Other than family, well, deres stil one more thing which goes on with my relationship. Which is our partners in life. Of coz, i'm not in a relationship right now.... But i did get hurt b4. As it was half a year ago, but stil i cant forget bout it. Everytime sumthin happens, i'll tink of him and de times and places we went and gone through together b4. It can be said as de best relationship i've in as i've not been pamper as how he pampered me. It can be said tat its a bless for me to meet him. Sadly, it ended up break up. Everytime i tink of him, i'll tink of de problems we gone through. Did i did anythin tat makes him wana break up? or izit my attitude? Lots of questions. Its hurt and sad to leave him, as he didn make de move to say anythin tat prove tat we ord break up. He didn mention wana break up, but just choosing a way of not calling me, replying my messages. I'll prefer he'll confront me and talk bout de problems. But everythin is over, i hope miracles will happen.

Saturday, May 24, 2008

Stories of all

For long i didnt post anythin.hehe!!!all coz of modem sudah rosak.but at last, bro went to buy a wireless rumah sudah ada WIFI. wiiiiii..... and soon, i'll be getting my bro's labtop since he ord bought a new comp. but de labtop sudah cacat ler...screen ada sikit rosak, den quite dirty coz bro din clean it. it's now fill with dust. haha!!! poor baby labtop. nvm... change new owner ord, u'll be clean everyday.

Ok...nothin much happen dese days. except i've been sick and haven heal. and this has been going on for a week. OMG!!! when can i heal??? mummy went to Yogogarta ord...(if i din spell it wrongly.hehe!!!)its located at Jakarta. First time mummy went for a vacation with her friends since we were born in this earth. i mean de 3 children which brights her life and make her feel tired of us coz we are naughty.hehe!!! she went for 3 days 2 nites and will be back today nite time. dunno ada buy sumthin for me not.ehehe!!!eager to know le... coz mummy said there's a lot of shopping complex. so...its mostly for them to shop dere.

While mom was not in, I've to do all de housechores as i know my bros will be lazy for tat except if i open my mouth and starting mumbling like mom. hehe!!! Yesterday nite...went to had dinner with my cell group members... yesterday everyone was there. Well, its fun. Went to Sakae at sunway piramid to have dinner with them. Its my first time dere, well, its nice. i ate de "Beef Udon". was so delicious tat i almost drink finish de soup. but too hot ord, coz i was sweating dere, so left some of de soup. Others ate a lot too and it looks nice too. next time muz go dere and eat again. hehe!!! After dinner we had a chat dere, around 10sumthin balik rumah. we din take any pics, so cant post here. aih!!! next time find a chance to take some pics with them.hehe!!!!

Kar Wai send me back home... He send Ai Ling back first then oni me. He went to petrol station, den ask his bro and sis wana buy anythin not. Well, both them said "ROCKY". haha!!!! Now oni i know there're so many ROCKY lovers except my bro. He asked me whether i wan it now... aiks...nope, saya tak mau. coz tak berapa suka. At last, he came back with a pack of M&M. Aiya...
P/S---Kar Wai, next time no nid to buy ler...hehe!!!coz i seldom eat chocolates and sweet stuff.neway, thx for de M&M. paiseh le... ahahhaah!!!
Then on de way back, suddenly i asked him where he mostly club. He's kinda surprise i tink, and ask me why i suddenly ask like tat. then i said i read his blog... He started to be so interesting in it, asking me hows his blog and any comment on it. Well, Kar Wai's blog is not bad. Can said as "awesome". Is this de word to be use??? haha!!! Yea, it is. Although he writes de blog bout himself, but he manage to use a lots of words to elaborate it and use some kinda words tat brings out de meaning of it. A good blog to be read. Let me introduce this meaningful and awesome blog....

Saturday, May 17, 2008

Bored & Moody

Boring man.... *squiks*
Its been a tired day for me though deres oni one class today. Wake my bro up, and wait long for him as i was really rushing coz am gonna be late. arghhh!!!! Tell him late ord still can have his breakfast in front of me. Taking his own sweet time. $#%#$@#$% Am now attending class will full of concentration as i want to studyy well. Trying to do my best and aiming for "A" and "B"'s *cheers*

Went back home, mom was nagging dere. Dunno wat happen, mom suddenly mumbling here and dere. Wana help her with the house chores, but she say NO NEED. Aiya...hurt la mummy.haha!! mau tolong tapi tak bagi... Then sit in front of de comp for long... nothin to do. Wana have a nap but no mood, so just get to books... starting with my notes. Eldest bro came back from Melaka. But nothin oso, aih aih!!! Thought tomoro can get to shop v mom and bros, but mom cakap she go cuci hair oni. Call me stay at home study. OMG!!! I'm not any superwoman man...i need to grab some rest and relax myself. Plus...its been long i didn shop with mom alone.

Wishing here for a pair of wings, fly fly fly...
I'm really dead bored staying at home. I WANA GO OUT... HELP!!!!

Thursday, May 15, 2008

Outing thats FUN

woops... hot hot!! haha!!!
Its been really a hot weather... argghh...!!!
though yesterday rain for a while when i'm in class... but still... after stop raining and i step out of de class... can feel de sweat flowing...

Yesterday... was de 1st outing with my cell group members. Not all of them came. Just me, Yvonne and Laverne. aiks... Kar wai and Kah heng sick ord... Pray hard for them to recover faster. Wai sin having exam, pray for her to do well. Angela and Chris went back hometown haven come back, pray for them to have a safe journey. Harry was busy.

How was yesterday outing??? Well, it was fun. Some other cell group members join us. Laverne and Jin chong came to pick me up. I was so scared they'll lost. Coz some of my friends said before dunno how to come. haha!!! and my directions are bad. Improving now... hehe!!! Reach Mid valley, we were the first to reach then follow by the others. After everyone reach, we were making decisions where to have our dinner. At last, Madam kwan is the place. erm... everytime my mom and bro say wana go there, i say NO. Coz i don't really like to eat nasi lemak. Of coz, dere's still choices. Ate spagethi. *yummy* I love spagethi. After dinner, we went for bowling. lolx... it was fun. and it was "ladies nite" all ladies get cheaper price per game. It cost rm7 per game include de shoes. While playing, every cheers for each other. There were around 12 of us playing if not mistaken. And only one lane is available coz its full. *no choice* It was my first time playing bowling with so many ppl. haha!!! and everyone is cheering. one word, FUN. We used more den one hour to finish up de game. And mostly all of us were tired. Yvoone and me were yawning dere... too tired ord. After game all went back home. Again Laverne and Jin choong fetch me back. *sori ya, mafan ya'll* hehe!!!!

Well, sometimes...there are frenz around us. Although they didnt really treat you as besties. But still i appreciate the existance of ya'll around me. Love ya'll much. Friends can be true, can be fake. but still its all about the heart that you take out to face them.

Sunday, May 11, 2008

Specially for YOU

Ok... This is a blog specially for a fren, a sister in christ and one who helps a lot.
Its for you my dear sister.
Well, in some previous blog i did mention about you. You brought me to CHC and made me have de courage to accept Christ again. I use to tink tat it isnt any big thing for me. But for now, it is.

You've read my blog tat day, and you were bless by my words. Actually de one whos blessed is me by YOU. My dear, after you read my blog tat day you wrote a blog in yours. The next day i woke up and finish with the house chores, i decided to view your blog. I was so touch by ur words. While reading your blog, tears drop from every words and every second i read through your blog. And i'm happy that i'm first one who raise up my hand whom you invited to CHC. I know one day more and more friends that you invite will come and join us and meet us in heaven.

My dear, you're the sister whom brought a new life to me, who made me once again feel the PRESENCE OF GOD. Once again, i really thank you for your invitation on that day which brings LIGHTS and BRIGHT up my life...

As same as your words, see you in the finish line, meet you in heaven. AMEN
God bless you.

Happy Mothers Day

Today is Mother Day. Happy Mothers Day to every mother... especially to my mom.
I've ord plan to ask mom to join me to church bcoz today church will be celebrating Mother's Day. I've asked her a lot of time since last week, but stil she reject my invitation. *hurts...* Seeing happy mothers entering church and receiving gifts (the gifts were apron and it was not enuf bcoz theres alot of mummy) with plenty of smiles, and leaving church with lots of cheers plus getting lots of prayers and blessing from others. This makes me feel tat, how i wish my mom was one of them, but nvm bcoz i know tat one day my mom will follow me to church and bless by others and GOD.

Paster Vincent came to our church to have a talk. His talk is not bad. It made us laugh and taught us something through his talks. It taught tat we should embrace ourselves, love ourselves and more... After de talk, Paster Vincent wana pray for those who are having exams or going to sit for their exams, having tough time with their assignments, and having tough or problems in their relation. Well, actually i plan to go out as i had little problems in de relation with my family. Not reali like having arguements or anything. It just that i hope my parents will understand me more and knowing i will do my best for them and myself. I know that i have to prove to them 1st, and i have faith in myself that i can do it.

Well, exactly its Mothers Day today. My family and i celebrated it yesterday. Though i didn buy mom anythin, but by helping her doing house chores will make her happy i tink. hehe!!! But i hope tat i can do more for her. Other than tat, just now went to have a dinner in restaurant, it was so pack that there arent any sits for us so we have to choose another restaurant.

Mummy, Happy Mothers Day and hope you'll be happy to have us around you. Love you.

Friday, May 9, 2008

Light up My Life

today??? reach coll den go class... was rushing man. coz ord late. haha!!!
reach coll oso earli lar... now i have to be in class on time so tat i wont miss anythin. to study hard ma. wat to do.

den last nite b4 i slep, i pack my stuff which i bought den look at my timetable... i was like... oh shit... time clash lar... why now oni know??? haha!!! reali numb.
so today i wana change sub but HOP (head of program) is on MC. aiks...
dis is de 1st week and no fees charges for any changes, but 2nd week got le. sei lo dis time. duno how tim. but hope HOP will help me... pls.

To de main point.
i just came back from cell group meeting.
its a Laverne house. her house was so cool. de time i went in i felt so cool and comfortable.
when everyone has arrive, everyone introduce themselves as this is my 1st time.
Then, we played a game which is conducted by Yvonne. It was funny. haha!!!
everyone has to tink of an animal. mine was king kong... u noe wat?? king kong rocks de world man. *wink wink*
after tinkin, de games starts by de 1st person who do his/her animal action 1st den follow by doin others den its another person's turn to do de same too.
It was so fun, everyone was laughing... At last, kah heng and one more guy(sori, forgotten his name ord.hehe!!!!) lost, dey hav to act cute let de camera girl to take 5 shots. dey were so cute. lolx.
Later, after games is worship. den conducted by kah heng and jin chong. everyone have to share their thoughts after attending Paster Kong's service which is last week. When its my turn, i duno why i talk bout my parents.
Actually my dad doesnt like me to go to church, but after convince by mom, he say ok. But dese days, after i return home from churc, he'll ve sitting in de living room and ask me, where did i go. I thought mom told him ord, but stil he ask me. After i told him where i went, saw his expression, can see that he's not very happy. Last time i use to attend EFC church which is located at Bukit Anggerik, but coz of some reasons den i stop ord. Then my fren Yvonne invited me to City Harvest Church, this time it started to makes me feel comfortable and wanting to attend church. Always looking forward on Sunday. Izit bcoz of i change church or bcoz of long time i din attend church ord den dad thought i don wana attend den feel happy, den suddenly now attend again den not happy with it???
huh!!! how i wish things could be easier for me.
After sharing, jin chong talks about something about his life which is kinda similar with mine and share some words of God.
After listening to it, i felt that one should always tink positive and miracles will happen. u know what???
It "Light up My Life"
felt better and confident.
Thanks everyone. God Bless.

Selfish & kind, STUDY

New semester started ord. OMG!!! i fail one sub last sem which is de stupid graphic paper. urghhhh!!!
resited de paper ord... now waiting forde result.
hope everything will be fine, hope i can pass this paper... *oh lord...pass oni.pls*

hmmm...sumtimes i wonder. why human beings are so selfish???
no hard feelings k human. am jz wondering and thinking oni.
coz now i encounter a problem...
a fren of mine get sumthin from a person... it can be share with others as it helps others a lot too... but why doesnt my fren help???
so... why humans so selfish???
i owiz get scolded or talk by my frenz. dey'll say, why i owiz let others make use of me??? why i so kind??? i was wondering... is this bcoz of i'm STUPID??? *woops...-.-"*
well, for me...i reali duno why. i found tat its reali hard to push others invitation or helps. i felt tat i'm hurting tat person and frenz are mend to help each other. i dont want any enemy's around me.
but for one thing, i noe its gd to help ppl, but if de person doesnt reali treat us as frenz and backstab by dem.... it hurts a lot. i owiz get those, and to tell all dose backstabbers, it reali hurts k. tink b4 u wana say anythin to harm others.

woops.... words gone too far ord.
back to here...
well, tinkin a lot dese days. although new sem jz started... am owiz in front of de comp lookin and arranging de notes...
mom saw and asked why i use so long (2days) to finish up this thing.
i was like... mom... if not??? but truly.... mom... i wana study hard for u and dad and myself.

dis morning... i arrive coll damn earli coz of bro. den called jackie coz thought hes tat earli.
haha!!! at 1st say got class...den call me say lazy go class, so we go asia yum cha.
hmmm... talk bout degree...
wah!!! now i'm scared. go Austrailia??? yea, i plan to do so.
but... it needed more den 3.0 CGPA to get dere. not takin de last sem results but de whole 2 and 1/2 years result man. all add up den divide. jackie said tat at least muz every sem de results must get A or B no C.
i was like... WTF. oh man. i ord get 3 C's and one fail. dis time sei lor...
luckily, he add up few words... "dose which get C now u must buck up to get A"
then i was tinkin... hmmm... A ar??? duno can or not... but for sure. i'll try my very very best to do so. muahhhss.... GOD BLESS

Sunday, May 4, 2008

New thoughts

Well, its been long i didn't update my blog huh!!!
hurm...its not tat i;m bz rite havin holiday. ord for 2 weeks but jz sit at home doin nothin.hehe!!!! (actuali watch drama...*pheww*...) fren Yvonne invited me to her church "City Harvest Church" pass few months ago during Easter Day.
I had a lot of fun and de main thing is tat i enjoy a lot dere.
Can't compare with my old church...i don;t lik being force into somethin. I like de way tat i accept everythin myself and not by forcing.
As Yvonne invited me dere...i was tinkin... dis should be my 2nd time dere and my last...haha!!!
Y did i tink so??? Mayb coz i thought dey'll be talking all bout bible stuff.
As in a different way.. dey surprise me... during easter, theres a lil drama up de stage and its great. after attending church... i was send back home by Yvonne and i thought and thought...what could it be stickin in my mind???
During de whole service...i walk up front and release not in in my sins....
after tat time... Yvonne did offer me to her church but i cant attend coz havin finals soon and i need to buck up v my studies and i'm kinda poor in it.

After finals, and after one week of holiday...Yvonne invited me to her cell group meeting.But i cant attend.
But i did attend on sunday i went dere...i felt de urge tat is pulling me into dis church. City Harvest Church...i felt deres sumthin pullin me in and tellin me tat i should attend church more frequent.
Just yesterday...i attend Paster Kong's Paster Kong is de founder of City Harvest Church...i'm glad tat i attend this service.During de early stage of worship... everyone were singing with their hearts out...but i dont feel it, after sometime...strength pulled me in and i'm part of dem worshiping God.
After Paster Kong's talk, theres a lil closing worship.izit tat wat should be called???
I was praying so hard dere...coz they have their own language...izit de language which dey communicate with God???
after a hard time of finding de way out and solutions...We were told to hold each other hands.Everyone in de church was praying with their heart. de voices tat came out from their heart and mouth... I dunno Y, suddenli i spoke their language...But stil theres sumthin i;m tinkin bout...izit rite for me to do so???

To tell de truth, i reali felt bless to be brought to this church. Yvonne...reali thx for takin me to ur church. I reali did enjoy it, not only enjoy, i also learn sumthin from dere. more bout God.
Today deres 2 service of Paster Kong's. But i cant attend coz nid to attend class undang. sob sob!!!!
Tomoro deres another too. I reali wana attend, but...need to accompany my bro coz he came bek from melaka.

Actuali i'm not born in a Christian family. Even my dad doesnt like me to attend church. but after some words from my mom, he evertually let me attend and doesnt ask a lot. Oh Lord.thanks. How i wish i could bring my parents to attend church at least dey get to know how de church looks like, what kind of friends i mix with and how great and wonderful is my church is. But sad to say tat my dad has bad impression towards Christians. As he heard stories from his friends. huh!!!

Next sunday is mothers day. and i reali wish tat i could bring my mom along and let her be blessed by God and celebrate together with all the mothers in church and have fun. dunno whether i can bring her along not.