Missing YOU

Its been more than half a year. Everything changed, you changed a lot. Looking back at all de photos tat we took, it makes me misses you more. At first its a hard time for me to forget you and leave you as deres no words from you after de last day i saw you and de last phone call from you. All i heard de news of yours is through your friends and your parents. The last phone call is when before you go back to your hometown, telling me tat you'll contact me when you come back to KL. In the end, although you came to KL deres still no calls or sms from you. It makes me felt so bad and acting nothin is happening, pretending to be happy in a way tat i'm not happy at all. A hard time tat i've gone through. Day by day, wishing you and waiting for your calls, but still no phone calls came through till now. At last, i'll just have to take it, have to accept everything is true and theres no turning back anymore. A deep heart is being hurt... and told myself to stand strong no matter wat.

After a few months, still no sign of you. But news from your parents who always make de courage to call me and this makes me feel so touch. Whenever your dad called me, he'll make sure i'm alright and tell me to take care as my route is still long and they're still a bright space waiting for me to fill it with colors. Always make sure that i know your updated news and wats happening aound you.

As always hearing tat you'll be going to Dubai to work, but wanting to know when you going, i try my best to check when you going.

Finally, after checking when you going but still i duno when. The day you went to Dubai, your dad called me and told me you were off to Dubai ord and just reach Jakarta waiting for de next flight to transfer to Dubai. After one or two weeks, your dad called me again. Asking me how am i, and told me bout your news. Told me tat you lost ur lugage, but luckly met a few person dere whos gd and friendly tat bring you to buy some stuff tat you need while waiting for your lugage to be found. This makes me worry at first. Now you're dere. Hope you're happy with your work dere and God bless you my dear.

What makes me suddenly think bout you and wants to write bout you???

It coz of i went through de pics we took together. And de pics tat you posted in friendster, saw some of de pics were de one i took for you b4 and i also saw de 2nd pic tat you send to me through mms. Still remember, trying my best to to slot out some time for you. de hard times tat i had and times tat you comfort me and lectured me. Moments tat we use to spend time at some places tat we went for so many time. Times we took bus, lrt, putra, ktm, taxi together. Although we have no cars, but we still do spend great times together. Times tat we argue and we talk to each other back. Time you and me spend with each other family and friends. Still remembering de 1st time you met my mom and bro, you were so shy tat you dare not hold my hand in front of my mom till i said its ok to do so. remembered de 1st time you came to my house, having dinner at my home cook by my mom. going pasar malam helping my mom carry all de fruits along walk back to my home. Time you were playing with my babies... my baby dogs. Time we use to hold hand and you gave me hugs and kisses and it warm up my heart whenever you does it. The 1st time you cooked for me. stil rmb, just cooking a packet of indomee, but you put so many ingredients in it. Drinks tat you made for me were so SWEET... Love it.

But now all dose were memories for me... I will keep it in my heart forever. Hope everything with you wil be alright and goes well. My dear J, words tat you gave me and supports from you will always be de courage for me to do something tat i dare not to and time when i'm down. Thanks for de sweet memories you gave me. Although no couples for us to be, but hope deres still FRIENDS for us to be. Best wishes to you my dear J. Heart to heart, its very warm. LOVE